Wednesday, April 6, 2016

The Secret Diary of a Pregnant Yogi

As some of you know, I have recently discovered that as of January I am expecting a new little human to enter my life! It's very exciting news and we are thrilled and grateful. At first this news is very joyful and exciting but also quite overwhelming. Having not been aware of really what to expect, the last few months have been quite a shock to the system. The first three months of creating a human have proven to be some of the most challenging months of my life. How did I get through it? My ever trusty yoga and meditation, of course!

After first learning of our bun in the oven, we were overjoyed! But, after all the bubbly feel goods faded, I was left with constant nausea, extreme chronic fatique, bloating, and a plethora of other not so pleasasnt symptoms (which I won't go into for your sake). What typically consisted of mostly veggies, my diet was shifting into the abyss of cravings for sugar and fatty foods. Every time I saw a Mcdonald's commercial or someone eating cake, I was overcome with desire for that particular food. What was happening to this energetic and happy yogi? After many moments of anxiety and wondering when it would all be over, I realised very quickly that this is exactly why people don't tell you they are pregnant until after the first trimester is over! No one wants to hear about how miserable you are feeling, and you really don't want to talk about it.

The main reason I want to express the hardship I experienced is becasue I had NO idea it could be as hard as it was. I was totally unprepared mentally for the days ahead, and I hope that I can be that voice for someone else. The bottom line is that it's ALL going to be okay! Even though I found that hard to believe at the time. Meditation and yoga were my daily morning companions. The beauty of it was that no matter how awful I was feeling, I always felt like I was able to come home into my body through my practice. Although this little alien had invaded it, my mind and body could still find connection, stillness, and peace within the discomfort.

Toward the end of a straight 7 week period of this, with many deep breaths, practice, and family support, I was finally able to come to a place of acceptance. Gradually, the symptoms began to ease and today I am feeling more energetic than I have in over 12 weeks! So, it does get better... There is a light at the end of the tunnel of knitting a human in those early months. There are tools to be used that will give you a reprieve from the challenge.

And, this applies to everyone, not just expectant mothers. No matter the issue, conflict, or challenge, you can find rest within your breath. You can come home and find peace at any time, or learn to lean in and breathe.